desculpe o transtorno

a real mudança é interna

é de dentro pra fora e não o inverso

a gente tira da nossa vida o que não deveria estar mais

a gente se conecta com o que nos trás paz

e queremos chegar há algum lugar

e que caminho escolheremos

e em qual direção iremos?

o crescimento emocional requer que demos mais de nós mesmos,

além de ser mais demorado

tentar ser melhor do que você foi ontem é um processo gradativo que geralmente não é notado por aqueles ao nosso redor.

mudamos de aparência quando nos cansamos, mudamos o corte de cabelo e o estilo de nos vestir

mudamos de endereço, de carreira, de relacionamento mudamos nossa história, nossos gostos, nossas opiniões

mudamos de idéia e de convicções

mas a mudança interna não é fácil

não depende do externo

requer um individualismo que ninguém nos ensina

que nos gera culpa

porque requer certo egoísmo olhar para dentro de nós com mais amor do que olhamos para fora

sua melhora consiste no que você produz em seu interior e só então exterioriza

isso não significa que você deverá se isolar

mas que ironicamente essa é a única mudança que importa


writing about motivation for once?

I don’t have to do amazing things to be important. I don’t have to be the best in everything I do. I can do what I want to do because the success of other people does not decrease mine. The beauty of other women does not cancel mine. There will only ever be one of me that exists ever, and even if I don’t do amazing things I’m still the best me I can be. I can always try to be better than I was yesterday.

I know life can be painful and that I can be tired of everything and feel completely lost sometimes. I know it all may seem a chaos I’m living in. There’s problems and questions and patterns and pain almost everywhere and I’m constantly afraid of failing.

Admit your fragility is showing vulnerability and that means lost control. Perhaps, showing your flaws and being vulnerable can be an act of courage.

It needs courage to fail big and stick around, and make them wonder why you’re still smiling. Let them see you’re the best you that no one will ever be.

There’s so much life and I’m so inspired by the earth because I’ve seen and lived so much bad shit and I’ve been through so much but the earth keeps turning and the grass keeps growing and the rivers keep flowing like things are gonna be okay, and I know everything’s gonna be okay. And I keep trying to be the best I can be and I am so proud of the better self I’m becoming.

Lo que siento

I think love is when something cool happens and you can’t wait to tell a person about it.

When you want to hear every little detail of their day I think that’s a pretty good sign too.

Comfortable silences, feeling warm when you listen them laughing, if the little things about them make your heart melting and you think about them before falling asleep.

You never tired of listening, you listen to them because you care. If its important to them it’s important to you too.

I don’t believe in love at first sight.

I believe you meet someone and you identify with them and suddenly one day you realize you see them differently now than you did the night before.

That is growing love, that is actually falling for someone and that is way more prettier than “love at first sight”.

The concept of growing love for someone is prettier than love at first sight I think.

I consider myself someone that loves a lot, because in general I feel too much. But that’s how I see love, you grow love for someone and one day you realize is bigger than you thought and fill your heart entirely.

Take a few steps back

Everyday I feel like I’m trying to make sense of something which doesn’t have a sense at all to begin with. All this feels strange and untruth, and the uncertainty often brings me an agonizing desperation. Then I start remembering some chapters from the past, I remember how good some things have felt, and how bad they look to me right now. I realize somehow how hard it is to tell how things affect you at the moment and how they seems like a blurry photograph when you look too close at them. And as hard as it may seem, sometimes we just have to take a few steps back, take distance to see things more clearly. I know there are certain things that at the moment we think that’s all we want and need, because it is all we can see from that distance. It is what’s in front of us, so close it’s blocking our view and we can’t see what’s around.

I took a few steps back and I could see there was much more than what my eyes were seeing. There was another way, there was a whole picture, clearly, not blurry, but a high definition preview of all the options I still have on the way. As much as at the time I felt like I was only going backwards and being left behind, I see the importance of those steps backs now. I don’t have the answers to most of life’s questions either. And I know the sea may often look as if it were nothing but a vast, endless pool of emptiness and it gets darker and deeper. When that happens, just take a few steps back, and chill out. I know you might be anxious to know if you’re going to achieve your dreams at all. And that you may be tired of everything everyday. Like we’re swimming in circles and fighting exhaustion but we’re looking for this voice saying “keep going.” There’s pain and fear almost everywhere, it’s just part of the thrill. Just take time to listen, sometimes instead of saying “keep going” the voice is saying “slow down”.

Feeling myself


You think I feel things too much, that I am intense and overreacting. You think I fall in love too quickly and that I want everything to be fast, at the time I want, or not at all. You think I let myself be influenced by other people too easily and that is why I am always unsatisfied. You think it would be better if I feel less, desire less, keep my heart sedated so I can hurt less. And save my energy to other things but fragile emotions.

But I must say with all my sentimental heart that I already know what is like to feel nothing at all. That I spent part of my life hurting myself, desperately wanting to feel something, anything, including pain.

I must say that when I want things fast it is because I know what it is like not to hurry any decision. And let life pass by with a catalog of options and not wanting any of them, cause nothing would actually make any difference. I must say that I hold on to any kind of emotion I have because I want to feel all the physical reactions of each part of my body. I must say I let myself be influenced because I want to experience all the different things in my way. I want to try the new and be able to tell what is good and what is bad for me. I must say I am always unsatisfied because I want to know what else I can do, where else I can be. I want to taste new things and smell new things and feel new winds.

I used to wake up and feel nothing, and go to school and feel nothing, and fight people and feel nothing, and kiss people and still feel nothing. I remember waking up and thinking: “Do I have to live another day, again? For what purpose? There is nothing out there for me.” I wanted something. I took a spoon and burned it on the stove. And slowly I was approaching to my skin, and I was feeling the warm and it was getting warmer, it was so hot, it was burning the inside of my thighs and I thought: “This is something“.

And today I don’t need to burn my body to feel anything. Because I feel everything too much. All at the same time, and sometimes I wish it could stop it, because there is this war inside of me that I don’t know how to deal with it. But it is that war that makes me who I am, since I started to feel. Everyday I think: “Well, this is something.”